***Warning, I'm feeling down. Don't read if you are expecting me to be funny or uplifting - I am sure to disappoint. ****
What a day.
Today is Hubby's birthday.
Birthdays are a big deal in our house.
We like to pamper the birthday person.
Today started off kind of 'blah'....everyone was feeling kind of 'blah', and the kids all woke up and said different 'blah' type things- one said - "today is Dad's birthday, what do you think he is doing?" One woke up and pathetically said "Happy Birthday Dad..." One burst into tears. Another was solemn. I was trying to keep it happy but all the while I was super sad on the inside. Typically we would send someone a package - a party in a box - and ask them to decorate Hubby's office. This year he specifically ask us NOT to do that. Crushed as we were we listened and honored his wishes. No party in a box. We sent him birthday packages, but that is not the same, no streamers, no balloons, no cake, no nothin'. I bet no one even knew it was his birthday - he's just that type of guy. Thinking about that (no one even knowing or caring that it was his birthday) all day today made me even more sad. No one was there to give him a hug, make him breakfast, decorate his room, or bake a birthday cake for him. He probably didn't even think twice about it being his birthday, it was just another day for him...he says every day is like Groundhog Day. I bet he didn't even save his birthday packages to open on his birthday. What made it even harder for me is that I couldn't even call him to say happy birthday.....sometimes I hate deployments, today was one of those days.
What a day.
Today is Hubby's birthday.
Birthdays are a big deal in our house.
We like to pamper the birthday person.
Today started off kind of 'blah'....everyone was feeling kind of 'blah', and the kids all woke up and said different 'blah' type things- one said - "today is Dad's birthday, what do you think he is doing?" One woke up and pathetically said "Happy Birthday Dad..." One burst into tears. Another was solemn. I was trying to keep it happy but all the while I was super sad on the inside. Typically we would send someone a package - a party in a box - and ask them to decorate Hubby's office. This year he specifically ask us NOT to do that. Crushed as we were we listened and honored his wishes. No party in a box. We sent him birthday packages, but that is not the same, no streamers, no balloons, no cake, no nothin'. I bet no one even knew it was his birthday - he's just that type of guy. Thinking about that (no one even knowing or caring that it was his birthday) all day today made me even more sad. No one was there to give him a hug, make him breakfast, decorate his room, or bake a birthday cake for him. He probably didn't even think twice about it being his birthday, it was just another day for him...he says every day is like Groundhog Day. I bet he didn't even save his birthday packages to open on his birthday. What made it even harder for me is that I couldn't even call him to say happy birthday.....sometimes I hate deployments, today was one of those days.
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